"No, it's safe. Let's go, you said you wanted to eat satay." I diverted the conversation between the two of us at that time.
When we were about to leave the place, my cell phone suddenly rang. I quickly grabbed the phone in my bag and opened it. The name appeared again on my phone screen. Papa Addison. Why did that man reappear? Wasn't he satisfied with making me suffer during his absence? I really thought that was the last conversation we ever had but it wasn't. What else did you want to say? Wasn't he satisfied that he had made my day a bit of a mess back then? This disaster was still continuing. My cell phone kept ringing and Ataya confusedly asked me why I didn't pick up my dad's call.
"Shana, why don't you pick up your dad's call?"
"I can't do it, Ataya"
Ataya was even more confused when she heard my words. "Huh? How? What's wrong?
I tried to neutralize my thoughts and regain control of my traumatized self. I fell silent and started to open my voice 5 minutes later and answered Ataya's question which left the man confused.
"Can I tell you my stories?"
"Of course you can. Just tell me your story, Shan. My ears are ready to listen to all your stories."
I chuckled and was a little moved by the words that the man had just said. I invited him to sit down before starting the story.
"Actually, my relationship with my father has not been good for a long time. My mom and dad separated probably about 15 years ago because my dad had an affair with his secretary. My brother and I followed Mom and Dad away leaving the three of us in this city. Since my father left, there has been no communication between me and my father, none at all. Like humans who have no blood relationship with each other. I grew up without a father figure beside me and it's not uncommon for me to envy people who can be close to their father because I feel that at my current age the role of my father is very important for the flow of my life. And the older I get, I always feel that the life I live has no direction. You know why? Because the captain who brought my family's ship, apparently secretly left the ship and chose to become a captain on another ship. Losing the mecca to choose a partner is really painful and confusing, Ataya."
"And right on the second day of the Event, my father called and accused me all the time. He said I was the one who terrorized his wife, I was the one who disturbed his family's happiness. Why should I take care of other people's happiness when I haven't even taken care of my own. I don't understand why him can say such painful things. I always felt that I deserved to lose and be hurt by people, because my father was willing to leave and hurt his own daughter."
