Ataya interrupted my last sentence. "No, you can't say that. Those who left you and hurt you are ungrateful and stupid, Shan."
I asked in surprise. "Why is that? I deserve to be teased by everyone."
"A child whose family is not intact is a strong child. Maybe you've heard that a lot, but I'm sure you're really strong. You were hit by a tough destiny, because you were chosen by God to be a stronger person than the people around you. Other people never know how deep the wounds you bear, even though you shed so much sorrow in your room alone. You want to go home to the lap of your loved ones by pouring all your complaints, but unfortunately you have to heal your wounds alone, you can only hug yourself without anyone's help. People around you only know that you are happy with the life you have, even though you always silence your cries when the night is quiet, you are too afraid to be seen as weak. In fact, you are not a weak child, just unlucky in circumstances."
It felt like my heart was being hugged by Ataya's words. Tears were already rolling down my cheeks. I felt like I was in the world I had longed for, where I could vent all my thoughts about this complicated life. Ataya reassured me that I will always be able to face any form of test because the universe is shaping me to be a strong woman. Maybe you Dad will say the same thing that Ataya said when I told him about the evil world I live in now.
Ataya opened his voice again, the man telling about how his world had changed so much after his mother's passing.
"Shan, in the last few months my mom left me and went to the most beautiful place that we can't find in the world. At that time it felt like my world just collapsed and stopped. I didn't know how to live, my days were getting messy and almost every day I was drunk because that's what could help me forget the problems I was having. I always cry silently, Shan. Because I don't have a place to talk, I don't have a place to lean on anymore, I've lost the hug that has made me strong. I'm just like you, always looking fine when inside it's falling apart. Shan, people whose fate is like ours are God's chosen ones. God chose us because God knows that we are strong enough to live this unfair life. Because God separated us from our loved ones. But you know what? God did that because God wanted to bring us together with someone who can fill all the blanks in our lives. And surely we will find something we miss from the person we love in the person God has prepared"
I really fell in love with Ataya's way of thinking. That man always makes me feel that the world will be alright despite the many bad things that come my way. How lucky the person who has Ataya will be.
It wasn't long before my cell phone rang again. Papa Addison name appeared on my cell phone screen. I don't know what that man had to say again, but I was sick of hearing it.
Ataya, who heard my phone ringing, immediately told me to pick up. "Shan, pick up. You can definitely face this problem. You've faced a lot of big problems before but you managed to get through them, right? It's not easy but I'm sure you can do it."
With a feeling that honestly wasn't strong enough to hear another painful thing, but Ataya was right. All problems will be solved even if the process is different.
"Yes, hello, why? Want to accuse again?
