'Woah, you really are thrifty with your words' he commented bluntly. I am offended of course, what does he know?? So I ignore him and focus on my assignment. After that he walks away, not that I minded. From the start I don't have any intentions to get close with him.
After that our relationship is not getting better, we just ignoring each other. We just inducing ourselves in each world and it last until the end of semester, right before our final exam.
That was the hardest time of my life, I kept studying but I'm not showing any improvement. So my parents, as always, keeps pushing me and my condition was really worse. I just want to let go, to have fun and to release myself from my parents.
I was so depressed to the points that I want to take my own life. Actually I've considers that a lot, and maybe this is the perfect time to do that. maybe after all my dedication in living my life god will show his mercy and forgive for taking my own life.
So here I am, at the rooftop of my school, actually I've been here a lot and it was not strange to find me here, cause I like spends my time in here. The weather is cloudy, I snort think about how perfect this weather for me to jump. I scan the view from here, all the buildings, people on the street, and all the sports club that doing their exercise. Then I think about how this will be the last view before I finally let go of my life. Think about how this will be my last memories before facing my own death. I inhale deeply and then exhale loudly, hoping it will remain as a track of my pathetic self. I stepped at the boundaries, and looked down, I don't feel scared. In contrary I smiled, because this will release me from my suffering in this world.
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Good bye...Â
