What if?

Never did I,

Never once did I regret my decisions in the past

All the wrong paths that I took

All the wrong people that I misjudged

Not once did I blame myself because I knew,

God let me through all of this to make me stronger

But now, if that offer comes

The chance to turn back time, maybe I will instantly take it.

Bring me back to October 2021,

I want to rewrite my history. I want to scream to myself to rethink it thoroughly

I want to save myself from this misery

The silent depression that eats me from inside

But, what did I know back then?

I was just an overconfident and arrogant human

I still am.

But sometimes, I also think, what if that is the reason

Because I am still the same person and God wants me to be better and stronger

Not a weak mollusk that hides inside its shell

To become as strong as a lion, as slick as a snake, smart and brave as I want to be,

What if?