Kenapa Balik ke Indonesia setelah Kuliah di Luar Negeri?

I got a lot of question regarding this question, literally like a lot. Especially from people who doesn't know me well, or strangers who bump into conversation somehow.

People would assume that when someone pursue his/her study abroad, then he/she would eventually stay longer, either to work, or pursue a higher degree, or else. Which definitely not the case for me.

I have to admit that living abroad for sometime has set a new "the ideal of living condition". But at the same time also push another sentiment of not wanting to be thousand miles away from my closest ones -family, best friends.

People judge "Ih sayang banget", "Gak mau balik lagi emang?", "Kan di sana begini begitu, kalau disini begini begini"

People has their own idea of living abroad and I shouldn't judge. As I expect them not to judge my choice of coming back to Indonesia.

Family -seeing my parents are growing old each day, afraid of not having much time left to witness them is something I cannot bear, for now.

Best friends -living abroad has made me realize that I was all alone, the support systems that I needed the most is out of touch. Depressed, longing for warm embrace, bright smiles, endless laugh were something that longed the most back then.

It was not easy, at all.

I know I have survived, and I still can if I want to live abroad again.

But somehow, I am not ready, just yet, to live abroad a little longer.

Despite many personal reasons, lets talk about another thing.

There is always something in the back of my mind, that I always want to contribute to my country, to society.

And by coming to Indonesia, I can fully, hands on, contribute all my knowledge, my experiences to the society. It's not always something grand, to be honest.

Because, who am I? 

I want to contribute small things, each day, creating small impacts, that hopefully can inspire other people to do the same in the future. Snowball effect if you may say.

I also realize that I don't have really the capacity to create and contribute something big. Again, who am I? Literally no body.

Unconsciously, God always give everything that I ever wish, in time, when I really need the most.

I once dreamed of pursuing my study in Universitas Indonesia (well, I did study there although not graduated).

Since I was a child, I always dream of working in one of the high rise office building in Jakarta (and I did, in 2 different start-up company).

So, lets enjoy my time here, in Indonesia. And lets see how the universe (with God's power) fulfill another childhood's dreams.