So the results of the last mid-test finally come out and I am quite proud and glad to see that I am still able to keep my good grades in 38,9 almost 4.0 but one thing that bother me is I got C+ for Pancasila.
For almost half hour I was thinking what’s I done in wrong way so that made me end up with C+. I recalled wisely that I did the test at the exact time; I answered the entire question cautiously and excitedly. I wasn’t, however, so sure about what I wrote that because all the questions sounded the same like :
1. Coba Anda jelaskan apa yang dimaksud dengan Pancasila sebagai filosofi berbangsa dan bernegara?
2. Apa yang Anda ketahui dari makna Pancasila sebagai Ideologi Negara Indonesia?
3. Pancasila sebagai Dasar Negara apa yang dengan istilah tersebut dan berikan contoh?
Don’t you think that all those questions above have the same indicator and meaning and leading you in one conclusion that you have to explain why Pancasila considered as Philosophy, Ideology and constitutional dogma? So I presume it’s okay if I answered all those questions in one simply savvy paragraph, right? But unfortunately it’s not that okay to Pak Dosen. That why he gave me C+.
In whole my life I never got C , you know so I am pretty shocked that I got one right now. Many friends and folks said that it’s okay to be failed once or twice but I don’t want that to be happened to me. Never!
All of us want to have a sense of independence and control over our life and destiny. I believe that as human we all have a choice to be a failure or winner in every battle which we face. That’s why I always put a push discipline to myself. I am giving 120 % of my life to all the tasks, jobs and classes.
So it’s so devastated to see a C on my student index reporting book . I consider that C is stand for c’est pour el perdedor
Soy un perdedor
Im a loser baby why don’t you kill me?
Soy un perdedor
Iam a loser baby why don’t you kill me?
So do you think that I should go to Pak Dosen and ask why did he give me a C+?
Have him take a good look it , Explain that I never got C before than why I got one one?
Goddammit! In the classes of Management issues and crisis, Organizational Communication and Corporate Communication Plan, Italian History I even got As.
And why oh why in his class, Pancasila Class I got a C+
Doesn’t he ever think that it only makes me dislike his class more and more.
All of the negativity is in my head right now. I have to stand clear to visualize that one failure is a stepping stone to a stronger, more resilient Riri. Respect the humanity that as human there is once or twice me have to deal with failure. Too much success can sometimes lead us to grow an unwarranted sense of being infallible and feeling superior to others. Too many As in my student index reporting book can deceive me into think that I am Einstein or Stephen Hawkin. This failure can knock the stuffing out of such unrealistic self-aggrandizement and help my back on the right course.
Popular motivational coach Anthony Robbins says that we don’t just grow for ourselves – we grow so that we can contribute well beyond ourselves. This is an important thing to remember when we’re proceeding through failures. My experience of failure in Pancasila is good example to the other students to learn harder and more carefully during the test. And personally I promise to myself that I will make it up in the Final test next July.
And by the way I still have many books to translate to English like “io uccido by Giorgio Falleti“ and “io et te by Niccol Ammaniti” that Andrea sent to me from Italian two days ago. Maybe I am un perdedor in Pancasila but baby I am a Master in Italian Class.
Ciao!!
