A Letter to Mr. Simanjuntak...

A letter to Mr. Simanjuntak… ^^

Januari 6th 2012

22.40 WIB

Dear Bang Sugi,

Honestly I don’t know how to reply your proposal.. I have to meet you or call you or maybe I have to write another proposal.. Well, you sent me a proposal, but now I’m going to write you a letter..

I still remember the first time I met you.. at WBL.. I didn’t know you.. and we were at the same group right? Then you asked me to ride a cano (I don’t know what’s the right word, maybe cano-ing?? Hehehehehe..) I said “okay”! At that time, I was confused, I didn’t know you Sir and I hope I could ride that cano with someone else maybe with Karyani or Bang Herison or Kak Yosua.. But I found myself “cano-ing” with you.. hahahahahaha.. ^^v

Oya, I still remember you “poke” my facebook for several times after that..

June 16th 2011.. somebody called me in the middle of that night.. Mom and Dad and my brothers weren’t at home.. I slept with Illona. First call no voice.. but the same number called again and no voice again..zzzzzzzzz.. and you know you’ve called me 30 times in one night.. grrrrrrrrrrrrr.. but it was the beginning of all.. and that day was your birthday right? Hahahahaha..

You asked for my BB PIN.. then we “had been in lovely conversations” like you’ve said.. hehehehe..

October 22nd 2011.. Edamame, Grand City.. We decided to spare our times finding God’s Answer until December. But, honestly, I began to pray seriously on November 11th and God talked to me in Philippians 2 : 20-30.. “For all seek their own, not the things which are Jesus Christ's.” (Phi 2:21 KJV) God talked to me for the men around me, my close boy-friends, all of them “seek their own” but you’re not.. “But ye know the proof of him, that, as a son with the father, he hath served with me in the gospel. Him therefore I hope to send presently, so soon as I shall see how it will go with me. (Phi 2:22-23 KJV) Therefore I have sent him all the more eagerly in order that when you see him again you may rejoice and I may be less concerned about you.” (Phi 2:28 NAS) I talked to God why He sent you earlier.. I’m still young, I’m still 22 years old and I’m enjoying my life with my friends and family.. But God answered me… “Therefore receive him in the Lord with all joy, and hold men like him in high regard; because for the work of Christ he was nigh unto death, not regarding his life, to supply your lack of service toward me.(Phi 2:29-30 KJV) So, He has sent you earlier to me “to supply my lack of service toward Him”…

Then, I’ve had so many questions to Him but he answered me…

*God, I don’t know how to pray for this..

“But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it. Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” (Rom 8:25-28 KJV) November 16th 2011 God told me that the Holy Spirit will pray for me and God caused all things work together for good to those who love Him. So, I tried to move forward and kept praying..

*God, some people (some of my non-Christian friends and Christian friends but they don’t live in fear of God) told me that he’s not the good one, he’s too old, maybe he has a wife or kids but I don’t know about it (hahahaha..) how could I know that he’s the best You have given to me?

“My son, if sinners entice you, Do not consent. 11 If they say, "Come with us, Let us lie in wait for blood, Let us ambush the innocent without cause..” (Pro 1:10 NAS) November 16th God told me I didn’t need to listen to them who didn’t live in fear of God though they close to me.. I had to listen to Him and His words..

*Why should I pray for this? I know many couples they have a romantic love story like in Vampire’s Story and novels, they don’t need to pray, finding God’s answer, but they have a happy life with their families..

Instead, you ought to say, "If the Lord wills, we shall live and also do this or that." (Jam 4:15 NAS) On November 24th God told me that I had to find God’s will in my plans and my life because my life is in His hands and I had to give account for everythings I’ve done toward Him someday..

*God, I haven’t been in any relationship for 22 years.. so, I’m worthy to get the best guy (best guy in my version : my first love maybe or I was dreaming that my future husband will be my bestfriend or maybe he’s someone like in Vampire’s Story.. hehehehe..)

I learned a story about Moses and Miriam and Aaron in Numbers 12:1-16.. On November 25th God told me that it was a pride, an arrogancy.. The words “I’m worthy to get it or to get that” show our pride and arrogancy.. We often forget that we are God’s servant, He knows the best for us better than ourselves, we’re here to serve Him..

*But God, I don’t need a boyfriend now.. I’m enjoying my life with my family and friends..

On December 4th I went to Mawar Sharon Sunday service with you and the Pastor said about “we walk because of vision, not need..” (1 John 5 : 3-5)

*God, he’s far older than me..

December 16th .. “For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day.”(2Co 4:16 KJV) For someone who lives in God, when he’s getting older, his inner man is being renewed day by day.. I thought bout you..you’re someone who lives in Him, so I don’t need to worry about this..

On December 25th before I read your proposal God told me about Mary in Luke 1:38.. ”Behold, the bondslave of the Lord, be it done to me according to Your word.”  I’m a servant of God, I should let everything happens according to His word and His will. God taught me to have a heart like Marys.

At least, I had 2 questions and I already asked you by phone on January 3rd , for me, your answers were enough.. I have nothing to worry and no more questions to ask God..

So, Mr. Sugianto Parulian Simanjuntak, thanks for giving me your heart and make me feel that I’m the only one. I pray that you could be the first and last for me. And, I said “yes” for your facebook status “I’m single until the day she says yes” but I say “no” for your question “is it a crime to love you?” No, Doc, I think it’s not a crime to love me.. ^^

Hehehehehe..

Priskila (^.^)v