I'm So Sorry

(Buat beberapa temen deket aku yang aku mulai mixed feelings)

Buat temen (-temen) yang aku (sempet) deket, sori ya. Awal aku temenan sama kamu bukan berniat buat jadi si "fake friend" atau jadi si hipokrit dan munafik. Tapi karena emang mau temenan. Kamu tuh orangnya asik, lucu, jokesnya juga lumayan masuk di gw, and i'm just happy to be in your company.

But as time goes on, i get to see more of your personality. Whether it's from someone else, you told me yourself, or maybe i discovered it myself. But that's a good thing right? Well, the type of personality that i'm discovering is the bad ones.. I get it. 

Everyone has their ups and downs, and i have to respect and understand every aspect of it, because i myself also have a bad personality. I can't just judge people and hate them just because of that.

But it's actually bad. Like, real bad. It's so bad, it just infuriates me everytime (maybe it's just me). I can't help but try to give advices to you every now and then. It's a good thing that you listened though. There's still a chance that i can somewhat change you. But i guess, that's your personality and i can't seem to change it? Maybe i'm not trying hard enough. Also i don't have the guts to do it.

Dokpri

(Mulai ngomongin satu orang yang aku pernah deket)

You have a quite.. energetic personality. Maybe i just can't handle it. Well, yes. I actually can't handle it. I do like the funnier and goofy ones, rather than the extremely quiet ones, because i actually needed an extrovert friend at that time. 

But you're very energetic at most of the time (for me). I tend to try to match the people around me, especially you (because at that time i'm very close to you ofkors). But i just can't keep up (?) Well, that's my fault really.

 I'm not blaming you just because i can't keep up. I'm just saying you're to energetic for me. I don't have a grudge against energetic people i swear. I just can't handle them that well (sorry)

You're also quite loud. Mayyybe very loud. Sometimes though. Your scream is so loud and high pitched, i swear i could hear it from a mile away. Yes, my ears hurt and in some cases everyone would just look at us. I don't like that (that's a me problem, ignore that. I ain't blaming you).

You're also very horrible in relationships. Like, who in their right mind would give someone you barely know, your money? "B-but i've known him for 3 months!1!!1.. That's longg". hell no. 3 damn months is NOT enough dawg. "I-i'm sorry.. i was blind because of love..". Yeah, you better apologize. 

Because that was dumb of you. You should've known better. You guys ain't even dating, why would you even let him "borrow" your money like that. 

He even left you afterwards. Taking all of your money and not paying it back (obviously). That's what you deserve for trusting strangers >:(. If it's your friend at school, i guess it's still alright. Just make sure they're not using you or something. 

Even if they did use you for your money, there's a small chance they're gonna get away with it. You guys still go to the same school after all. They won't suddenly change schools just to get away with it. You just have to keep pestering them about the borrowed money, or maybe they tell their parents (if you have their number tho). 

Either way, maybe don't let other people borrow your money (big money especially). If they're very trust worthy, sure go for it. Well atleast you listened to my advice :D lop yu dawg.

 Speaking of relationships.. you're a bit freaky with it, but i don't mind. Just don't over react to much. He ain't your boyfriend yet, but why so giddy..

Even tho you haven't harmed me in any way, i still think you're a bit annoying. I'm sorry dawg, you're one loud and annoying person to be around with.. i like you as a friend, but you're to much for me. I'm sorry. There are still other things that annoy me, but i can't say that here. It has something to do with whatever she posts on her social media. Something that middle schoolers shouldn't be posting. (I'm not talking about her cosplays, they look good but the edits are a tad much. But who am i to care)

The point is, i can't handle big energetic goof balls. Yes, i'm going to call you that. 

You're too much of an extrovert for me smh. I also thought that maybe, you're going to be a bad influence for me in the future. After i realized that, i wanted to cut things off with you. But i don't know how to.

 I sometimes feel bad, so i prefered not to say anything about it. I know, i know, i should've just told the truth that it's bothering me, so we could still have a somewhat good friendship. 

But i just can't. I'm afraid that it'll hurt your feelings. I don't even know where to start. But either way, i should've just told the truth. I'm just dumb back then.

Remember that one time we fought? (my fault to be honest. I got carried away) You're just being annoying, and i got angry. Yeah, at that time i thought that it was a good opportunity to cut things off with you (i was desperate aight?). 

That's why when i scolded you, i just stormed off immediately. I finally had the guts to do it. I feel lighter when i stopped being around you.

But still. I should've just told you that my social battery runs out quickly when i'm with you and ask you to not bring me any where you go. It's that easy, so why did i even do that. Storming off like that. It's just dumb. I kinda regretted it, but it's still worth it. 

I value my social battery my good sir, that's why i'm sacrificing our friendship (that sounds so wrong, i'm so sorry) maybe i do have my own ego, but it's for my own good too. I don't want bad influences, i'm already terrible as it is.

I guess that's all that i have to say. If you do realise who i'm talking about. Just tell them, i don't care. If it's not true, discuss it with me, so i can understand their real intentions.

If that person is reading right now.. ello dawg, we good now right :D?? If you started to hate me more because of this, fine by me dawg. If some of these are not really true, talk to me yaya? That's just how things are, in my perspective. 

Just don't make this into a story in your social media. I hate that (if you're gonna do it anyway just to mess with me, aight fine. I can't control you can i?)