I'm So Sorry

(Buat beberapa temen deket aku yang aku mulai mixed feelings)

Buat temen (-temen) yang aku (sempet) deket, sori ya. Awal aku temenan sama kamu bukan berniat buat jadi si "fake friend" atau jadi si hipokrit dan munafik. Tapi karena emang mau temenan. Kamu tuh orangnya asik, lucu, jokesnya juga lumayan masuk di gw, and i'm just happy to be in your company.

But as time goes on, i get to see more of your personality. Whether it's from someone else, you told me yourself, or maybe i discovered it myself. But that's a good thing right? Well, the type of personality that i'm discovering is the bad ones.. I get it. 

Everyone has their ups and downs, and i have to respect and understand every aspect of it, because i myself also have a bad personality. I can't just judge people and hate them just because of that.

But it's actually bad. Like, real bad. It's so bad, it just infuriates me everytime (maybe it's just me). I can't help but try to give advices to you every now and then. It's a good thing that you listened though. There's still a chance that i can somewhat change you. But i guess, that's your personality and i can't seem to change it? Maybe i'm not trying hard enough. Also i don't have the guts to do it.

Dokpri

(Mulai ngomongin satu orang yang aku pernah deket)

You have a quite.. energetic personality. Maybe i just can't handle it. Well, yes. I actually can't handle it. I do like the funnier and goofy ones, rather than the extremely quiet ones, because i actually needed an extrovert friend at that time. 

But you're very energetic at most of the time (for me). I tend to try to match the people around me, especially you (because at that time i'm very close to you ofkors). But i just can't keep up (?) Well, that's my fault really.

 I'm not blaming you just because i can't keep up. I'm just saying you're to energetic for me. I don't have a grudge against energetic people i swear. I just can't handle them that well (sorry)

You're also quite loud. Mayyybe very loud. Sometimes though. Your scream is so loud and high pitched, i swear i could hear it from a mile away. Yes, my ears hurt and in some cases everyone would just look at us. I don't like that (that's a me problem, ignore that. I ain't blaming you).

You're also very horrible in relationships. Like, who in their right mind would give someone you barely know, your money? "B-but i've known him for 3 months!1!!1.. That's longg". hell no. 3 damn months is NOT enough dawg. "I-i'm sorry.. i was blind because of love..". Yeah, you better apologize.