Half of Me You Never See

I don't like watching siblings fighting

I don't really know about trauma

But it always reminds me about my childhood memory

When my sister annoyed me and sometimes hit me 

Or when she called me ugly about having bad hair and ugly nose

It automatically makes me tired for no reason

My heart beats fast

I dont talk about fallin love

It's deeper than that

I know that we couldn't go to the past,

but I always wish for going to the past

I wanna fight with my sister

I wanna telling her bad words

I wanna scream to my parents to always asked me to be patience

I AM A VICTIM

I NEED HELP WHEN I CRY

AND DONT NEED AN ADVICE TO STAY CALM

I'd like to tell you that I am 24 by now

and I am still not able to forget that moment

I am now really afraid for getting married

there are some other reasons for that

but yes it is

I don't wanna to ruin my children's life by not being educated

or by not aware about  kids have feeling and emotion

And also because they are a kid, they don't know how

how to defend themselves because you know that we less powerful

how to express our feeling because nobody told us