Half of Me You Never See

I don't like watching siblings fighting

I don't really know about trauma

But it always reminds me about my childhood memory

When my sister annoyed me and sometimes hit me 

Or when she called me ugly about having bad hair and ugly nose

It automatically makes me tired for no reason

My heart beats fast

I dont talk about fallin love

It's deeper than that

I know that we couldn't go to the past,

but I always wish for going to the past