Madness.... What do peoples always do when they're mad? Scream? Cry? Blame? Hide? Curse? Or even suicide? Usually, i'll call 'em fool... But this time... let me be that fool... I am the most stupid person.. Poor... Naive... and Weak... *** I'm not okay right now... this painfull disease's killing the damn right of me! But in other side... i feel so joy... Like i'm back to how i was... Gloomy brat with lonely and sad eyes... *** I'm sick! I'm sick of beeing betrayed.. I'm sick of beeing mocked.. I'm sick of beeing pooh-poohed.. I'm sick of masked faces.. I'm sick of faked smiles... *** I think i never... I never gave no respect to other.. I never leave my manner for treating other.. Even i ever was... But at least i try hard to respect other... Because i know : Whoever gives respect first, they'll respected more *** Responsibility... Every human beeing deep down in their heart, they want to be unresponsible person. I don't blame em. Everyone want to show up the devil side within em. But what i hate was, their mask is hurting other.... Me too... i want to show up my devil within me. And this's my devil. My ego. My "up to me". And my "why do i'd care?" *** Whatever... You could blame me as you wish. But this's what i want... I used to be "in the middle" I used to be "in front of" And in the end... i ended up in long period of : I used to be "in the corner" With no one disturb or ever noticed me... Friend with shadow, making love with lonliness... I love lonely, its not hurting me.. Because i do hate dissapointed... I love pain, because its honest... Because i do hate lie... And finally, I love madness... Because it's joy...
