Indeed, Satan is the real enemy for every Muslim
I learnt the second point the hardest way. I read about this many times as I read the Qur'an but the words just slipped by. Yeah, I know that ya Allah, as if my heart wanted to say.
During the painful heartbreak, His warning couldn't slap my face any harder. When you have a major issue in your life that's actually when your fighting against satan is at the hardest. And I experienced that for about seven months. Ustadz Nouman said that satan will pull us in four directions; right, left, back and from the front.
The experience told me that satan did attack me from two directions; front and back. From the backside, satan whispered me on happy memories that I shared with this once special man. Satan wanted me to stay in the past for good. He didn't want me to move on. I came to moments that mattered so much for me simply because he was there. At first, I needed to pour all my energy to fight against the temptation. Alhamdulillah, by Allah's help, fighting against that started becoming easier to bear.
From the front, satan wanted me to question Allah's capability to meet me with someone's new. I often wondered whether or not my heart would love someone as I felt to the one who was getting married at that time. Uncertainty started embracing my mind and heart.
That was my personal story. I'm sure each of you has different satan attacks. Our task is recognizing when that happens then seeks Allah's refuge from it.
Is it my fault or His plan?
In one of his videos, the ustadz said that understanding a decree can prompt us into two things. Number one refers to Allah's plan that is beyond our control. For example, you drive carefully and follow all traffic rules but suddenly another car hits you.
There are things that are entirely our decision and blaming Allah on our problems defy our good attribute as responsible creatures. For instance, I eat sugary food and drink for 10 years then suffer diabetes. That's all my fault who don't want to take care of my body. Some cases, on the other hand, occur that leave us in the darkness.
For example, I wake up late for Subuh prayer. A few hours after that, I don't pass a job interview test. Some questions may arise. Is that all because I wake up late for Subuh prayer? Or is it entirely His plan that I won't get the job?
For the third scenario, I need to have a positive assumption to Allah swt. No leaves fall on the ground except He says so. Getting rejected by the manager of the company is a good thing for me. That's just how Allah swt tests my faith.
