Various Trials

And after a year of being here, I found that seniors have various characteristics, some are good, firm, and really bad, for example, Uluq, he is one of the craziest seniors I've ever met. At our cottage there was a time when we were part of arranging parking for parents who wanted to visit their children or you could say the parking attendant, Uluq casually told me who was the parking attendant to go out to buy him food and his orders were richeese, pizza hut, and kfc. And what made this all worse was that he told me and my friend Fari to buy it with our own money. Fari also said "We are students who don't have that much money, how can we buy those foods?" and Ulug casually said "I don't want to hear any excuses, tonight before dinner the food must be there!". Fari and I were scared because all of our friends called Uluq one of the worst seniors here and none of us wanted anything to do with him. At that time, we were confused about how we could buy the food, we didn't want to borrow money from our friends because the amount would be large and they also definitely needed money for their own needs.

However, Fari and I didn't buy the food that Uluq wanted, Uluq said "hurry up and finish all this rice and side dishes after that, go inside my room!" We were scared, And we have to eat a lot of rice with a side dish, namely banana chips. We also tried to spend it but we can't because it tastes really bad. After that we were called to Uluq's room. Uluq was standing at the door holding a cane. My legs were shaking too much, Uluq said "this time I forgive you because I'm sleepy, but for the second time there's no more forgiveness! Hurry up and go to your room and sleep!" Since that night I really don't want anything to do with him anymore.

The next day my teacher called me, he said my sister wanted to talk to me, and my sister said through tears "mom has been diagnosed with cancer". I was shocked, speechless and crying. I asked permission to go home to meet my mother and my teacher gave permission.

When I got home, I immediately ran to my mother's room and confirmed the truth, and it was true. I also cried because I didn't want to go back to the boarding school I wanted to be at home taking care of him and spending time with him but my mother refused, she said "You know you are sick, and religious knowledge is important you now just have to focus on your studies, I'm sure you I'm sure he will recover.." hearing this made me cry even more, the thing that I was afraid of before entering the Islamic boarding school happened and I was trapped in this holy prison. And I can't argue because it will only make him sad but on the other hand, I don't want to leave her and the reason that I really don't want to leave because I was the only son in this family, I must nurse my mother or I will regret it for the rest of my life.

I've decide to follow my mother's word by staying at this boarding school I must be more patient of all the trials here, I didn't want to make her over think about me and I have to learn to handle this thing all by myself, because honestly I can learn so much lesson here, the thing that I must do is to be more patient. I have to accept all of the consequences that I had choose like entering this boarding school.

After I returned, I was contemplating on the fifth floor while drying my clothes, and there I met Alfath, and he reprimanded me "what's wrong, you look really sad?". And I told him about Uluq and about my mother, and he said to me "get well soon for your mother, and my Uluq problem might help him a little, he felt superior because he wanted to take revenge from what his seniors had done to him, and he took it out it's up to you guys and if there's anything you can call me, I'll help as best I can". On the one hand I feel relieved because I have told this story and on the other hand, I feel pressured because of Uluq's revenge and my mother's declining health condition, and i mustn't make her worried about my excuses here because all she have to do is focus on her treatment to recover and things didn't went like my expectation from the first time i entered this boarding school. the worst is that i'm still stuck in here for two more years.