Tens and Thousands

tens of hours. still, I couldn't believe.

the smile on her face. the eyeglasses on her nose. her long  straight hair.

they caught my eyes. I lose. she won.

I told them, my friends. her friends.

I tried. there's something. my heart can't deny.

no, it's not lust. something different.

I said it, honestly, directly, to her. finally.

then, I broke. into million pieces. it hurts.

pain in my heart. I can't believe. so painful.

she hates me. shame on me.

I try to accept. Maybe, I was just too fast.