I have joined this kompasiana since 8 December 2010, and it surprised me that I found a lot lot friends in this web, friends who always encourage me for all of my writings that they thought that it was my true story. Dear Kompasianer friends, all of my writings are comes from my heart, I wrote and give a spirit to my each writing, so I hope whoever read my writing can felt the warm, sorrowful and life in those writing. Lots of people came and share their problems to me and I be their friends and support them till they can stand up again by themselves. Some of my writings are come from their story, and every time before I published them, I asked their permission for it.
Some are agreed but some feeling better not to publish. I can wrote all the writing since I empathized to their story and I go inside to their heart and give them my compassion, therefore people who read my story felt that I was the one who inside the story................
I wrote this below writing in my blog, but I haven't put it in the Kompasiana, I think it's the right time to publish it. So, everyone knows what is the reason that make me back to writing hobbies.
THE REASONS (blog version)
Almost all of my friends who have visited my blog suddenly they gave me a call or contacted me in private, and they asked me whether I have troublesome moment in my life or my marriage..... They read my writing in this blog and they feeling sorry for me if I'm facing difficulties in life or in marriage, some of them told me that they read my writing in tears..... All of their comments, it's made me laugh but I felt happy in together since I believe that all of them so concern and care for me.....
Dear friends, I haven't writing any poems, short-stories or novel for almost 22 years and recently I start to write again. Some people said it is never too old to start something good. Dear friends, this is one of the reasons about all of this........
Recently, I have been informed that there will be a big reunion next year in 2011 for our junior and senior high school, its almost 22 years ago...... And thinking about this reunion reminds me about my first love to someone that I never forget until now. In that age, I love to sing "My first love" song by Nikka Costa, "Everyone can see...there's a change in me.....". My best friend, Riani whose still is my best friend till nowadays, recognized that I was in love. Someone that I dreamt about since I was teenager, someone that made me hurt so much during my teenage in junior school since he never knew how much I love him.
I still remember the way he walked, the walk he talked, and the way he hurt me........ He was the one who inspired me to wrote poems, poetry, short-stories and novel during my 1st junior school......... till I stop writing again after I enter senior high school and stop to forgot him and continue my life.
Now, I think it's the right time to back to my hobbies........ Write. It's never too late to start something good and never too old to talking and writing about what we called as "LOVE"......... Love is many splendors things..... And love is belonging to every age of human being.
I have 3 times fall in love with man of my heart, my first love in junior, the one who made me realize of my writing talents, the second man in my senior high school who realized me to discovered about self acceptance, which he has taught me to accept me as I am, with all my weakness and strengths. The last man, the great father of my child, the light of my life, the man with a great great great power to love me as I am..... With his patient tender loving kindness and who bring me back home always, to feel his warming smile and kisses....... My man, my husband that God has sent to me. I love you, Jeremiah...... and I still do.
I've been granted to have 2 lovely boys, who have taught me about life sometimes, the way they see God from their little young mindset, which teach me that I should be like them whenever I see difficulties or sorrowful moments in my life that I still have a Father who loved me as His child, Thank you, Joseph and Daniel. Both of you are precious jewels in my life.
My beloved friends, many thanks for all your care and love for me. I thank God for friends who have supported and care for me and my family. True friends are the real blessings in life, and I cherish you all with my heart.
Enjoy my writing and all your comment or feedback will be very encourage me for all this writing moment.