Empty
That’s the only thing I feel right now
I have lost everything
I have lost the innocence of my youth
I have lost the hope for a better future
I have lost the trust on kindness in this world
I have lost the passion to do things that I love
I do not think I ever have the love kinda feeling
And I have certainly have lost my faith
People said I gave up too easily
Maybe I am
But how can other people know the struggle inside me?
The questioning in my mind whether I am going to make it or not
The pondering in my mind whether I have taken the right decision or otherwise
The wondering in my mind whether I could still stand still after all those failures of mine
Every doors seems have been closed
Every lights have been turned off
I feel suffocated and helpless
I see not even a glimpse of hopes to guide me through this frightening journey
All I see is emptiness
All I have is emptiness
Everything around me is empty and I have no idea how to be filled again…
To live
To be alive
And not to be surrounded by emptiness no more…
