And now what? i've grown this big, i get older while time's spinning. Choices are my every day main dishes that i have to finish. Well, the problem is when i have to detrmine my decision, when i must pick one from other. It's simple to choose, but if you don't think what would happen next, hardship will get in to you. When my brain grows, and my thought improves, this section seems so difficult to pass. I have to think hunderd times, wasting every second that i take to consider which choice i have to pick.
Childhood was easier though time was tougher. I'd like to let my life flow that way, but people think you'll end in failure. Planning, i need it. But plan doesn't always go well. Then what?, letting it flow is better rather than stuck and captivated in a bunch of plans. I've been too hesitant, therefore i'm indecisive right now.
But before, have you ever thought about the end of your life?, it sounds crazy, but it's real. No one is immortal, and there will be a different life after death. When your eyes are shut, and your spirit leaves your flesh. You see your relatives around but none of them can hear your voice or even see you. Insane, you can call me that way, fine, we've got different point of view then. So when the reaper take us, everything we have, our wealth, means nothing. So, don't forget about things we've done during our time in the world.
Did you do the good deed, or may be there were many naughty things that you've already forgotten at the end of your life?. But in this age, where materials are much more important than morals, we pretend that there will be no trial aftre our death, or even hellfire surrounding our body. People thesedays are competing to enrich themselves and their family with gold and diamonds.What are all used for when we die?, we don't bring those anyway, we are not going to be burried by our wealth, they'll stay on this mortal life. Don't they think that God gives them that much to share with others who aren't as lucky as them?. Them or may be me, or even us, become so greedy, selfish, egoist and self-centered person. With wealth you'llbe respected, with poverty you'll be underestimated. World is improving but people's morality is lacking, a fact we can't deny. I'm swept away by this stream. I hope i can grab a strong tree branch in the river bank, and climb out of the river.
At last, i merely can say "que sera-sera, wharever will be, will be!". Makes sense that the future is not ours to see, we never know what would happen in our future. I just want to ask God to guide me and use me as welll as He wants me to do. Egoist, i've been, now think how to share. It's all a small old mother earth, and llife is laying on it for now, tommorow and forever.
