I know that numbers are confusing, but this is how we learn.
I learn to write every number, started from two, three, eleven twelve, etc.. I write almost every word, words and sentences in diaries like a blogging my opinion and telling the story of my daily life. It wasn't a mistake. Seems i am happy with that in otherwise.
Helping my cousins so they can continued their study, helping my brother through their own problems, my sister, my nephew, my friends and all the peoples around me. That's gives me some kind of pleasures actually. But, i still have something missing in my heart. I couldn't find it.
Yet, A dreams woke me up. It shows me more memory flash.
Numbers. The flash of the dream, remind me that i perhaps know and wrote every numbers in my whole life except number 1 (one).
Yes, I'm trying to make everyone happy, but myself.
I've make every decision to make sure that everyone will happy.
Just like every young people however, i have to find my own self. My identity. And that dream teach me to write number one. That meant that number is the missing piece in my life, my heart, myself.
I have to wrote the number one, shows me that so long, so far i have always began from the number two. Peoples first, then i forgot my own goal.
I have to be number one for myself in priority at least. I have to be who i am.
Of course, i will not stop make other people happy, but my happiness is in the lead.
Everyone is important, but I have to be number one.
Not being so selfish, but priority is to reflect to deep inside my heart, my need and my own character building. Self development and self priority.
I guess that the meaning of the dreams. Back to number one, began from number one and be the number one. And I will find the missing piece. Myself.
Enjoy the number,
=SachsTM=
