Wish I Could Still Love You

When I am too exhausted, can I stop for a while?
I just... I don’t know, the pains that I’ve encountered so far seem to last
It’s real and it’s getting worse every time I see you

Am I too involved with you?
Am I too deep to engage with you?
I feel like I am too much gotten into you
To the point that I have no space for loving my own self 

I don’t know me while I am with you
I am trapped by my own feelings
I am exhausted by any reason that I don’t want it to be you
In the end, I am still deadly in love with you

I broke me when I am with you
I am losing me in the middle of loving you
It hurts me to be there with you
Was it you that I called 'love'?

It seems to be very colorful at first
But it turns out to be blue
It hurts me too, to leave you...
I wish I could stay without leaving, but I can’t...

It costs me my happiness to be with you
The deeper I fall, the hurt even more...
This inconsolable heart and sorrowful mind
I tried to heal but no one seems to care

And when the day comes, I wish I could still love you
I wish I could be back someday, to be there with you again
To give you better love without any risk of pain