Yeah, let's evaluate my love....no..no! It's not love. It's the relationship that involves physical touch and integrated perspectif that keeps you both together. It's love.It's a boundary.
Finally, i have someone to share that concept. As what happened with my faith, it comes to my love scenes. As if in movies, this guy came along and turn my world upside down. We had our crazy  times. Watch stupid movies over and over again, and promised to keep this bondary alive.
but, still ... when u're with someone, there always be the fears that you'll lose him/her. That fear is normal. You just feel so much happiness with them and don't want the happiness gone. I do really enjoy my togetherness with this guy. It's just....it's not that good to be TOO deep in something. Makes you feel like you're trapped in a sucking mud and you're just too lost in it.
We shouldn't focus in a single kind of happiness, diver them!
How long you haven't spent your time alone, just for yourself?In ur own room,reading your favourite book with a  nice atmosphere and a head clean of all the stupid shit in your life?When was the last time?
You used to deal with go shopping alone for hours..but now, why we must deal with someone who doesn't even care why you bought those stuff?
The truth is, when we're stuck in our daily routinates, we'll lose the essence. We all have individual need. It's us, ourselves, who know and able to find it. Not anyone else. Not even your broker!
Our relationship has gone for almost a year. I love this guy but still...we both need our time alone. To search for our individual need. Forsake of our relationship. Because this happiness is too precious to be gone.
Well, thanks my guy! Being with  you has taught me a lot about facing this world.
Xoxo
