Insecurity, an Early Quarter Life Crisis

Everybody has their expectations, right?
Some win, some dissaponted. Like mine. I didn’t mean to hate everything in my life now but near the end of the year, its just like period. I am reflectioning and deep though about the origin of life and universe and why I have to live THIS way.
Has there been a point in your life where you don’t know where you stand, where you should and how you should continue to lead your life? And then you just want to stop doing everything, and just find yourself. Find out who you really, what you wanna do and who you want to be in the future. Hope I’m not the only one feeling this.
Right now I really don’t know what I wanna do/ be in the future. I’m turning 20 next year. And I don’t know why but I feel like everything’s closing in on me. I feel suffocated by everything around me. Even friends talking about their future makes me feel so…. I don’t even know how to put it into words. I just wanna go somewhere where no one knows me & then just become an unknown or invisible person in the world. I need time, time for myself. I also need to talk to someone but I’m not talking about friends. I’m talking about being able to talk to my parents, my family like friend. I want them to listen to me, understand me, give me suggestions and no judge, scold me or force me onto things I don’t like or want to do.
So many people out there have dreams and goals and a life, so certain of what they want to do and what they have to do get it. Me, I…. just don’t know. I’m such a failure.