I got a lot of question regarding this question, literally like a lot. Especially from people who doesn't know me well, or strangers who bump into conversation somehow.
People would assume that when someone pursue his/her study abroad, then he/she would eventually stay longer, either to work, or pursue a higher degree, or else. Which definitely not the case for me.
I have to admit that living abroad for sometime has set a new "the ideal of living condition". But at the same time also push another sentiment of not wanting to be thousand miles away from my closest ones -family, best friends.
People judge "Ih sayang banget", "Gak mau balik lagi emang?", "Kan di sana begini begitu, kalau disini begini begini"
People has their own idea of living abroad and I shouldn't judge. As I expect them not to judge my choice of coming back to Indonesia.
Family -seeing my parents are growing old each day, afraid of not having much time left to witness them is something I cannot bear, for now.
Best friends -living abroad has made me realize that I was all alone, the support systems that I needed the most is out of touch. Depressed, longing for warm embrace, bright smiles, endless laugh were something that longed the most back then.
It was not easy, at all.
I know I have survived, and I still can if I want to live abroad again.
But somehow, I am not ready, just yet, to live abroad a little longer.
Despite many personal reasons, lets talk about another thing.