A Little Story About My Struggle To Get Here

Hi, my name is Trisna Filius Adi, usually called Inaa, at the age of 15 with very little knowledge, i choose to continue my studies far from my parents, i live in a boarding house, live a new life and a new atmosphere, i took this decision not to fulfills my ego, maybe some people think i want to be free from my parents' supervision.  even though the reason i choose a school in another city was that i wanted to increase my knowledge, my experience, how to live independently?  solve problems on their own, and know how adults make decisions.

Day by day changes, going to school here was my decision but not with the major i wanted. everything was decided by my parents, somehow they looked at me as if i was still their youngest child, as if i couldn't make the right decision. I wasn't that ambitious when i went to school here, unlike in my previous school, my grades were out of the top 10, maybe because i took a major i didn't want??? and, at that time school was more often done online, and that was one of the factors that caused my grades to decline.

But, after entering grade 12 i started to think, there's no way i can be lazy like this forever, while my friends already have plans for the future, i started to rack my brain, wanting to study at UNP has been on my mind for a long time, but i was confused in choosing a decision, should i follow my parents' wishes again or not? I have the right to choose, right? this is my choice, and i will live it later. after thinking long and hard, English literature will be my goal, because i have liked things related to English since i was in junior high school, and this major will also be a bridge for me to pursue what i have dreamed of since i was little. I am not an eligible student because at the beginning my grades had dropped, i tried to take the SNBT exam with my knowledge which was still relatively little, and yeah i knew i wouldn't pass. however, i kept trying, i registered through Mandiri, just like the previous results i also didn't pass that year, gap year was my decision at that time. unemployed for a year at home, i have been through many things, very unpleasant neighbor's talk and people around me who always underestimate me to pass the PTN. I face the exam again, in this year's SNBT i already have preparation, i just want to see the announcement of congratulations this time instead of enthusiasm, but it seems like it's not my fortune anymore. there is still one more path for me to try,  register Mandiri and this is where the war is over for me, finally i achieve all my desires. and here i am standing here among 12 thousand new students.