Empty

Empty

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That’s the only thing I feel right now

I have lost everything

I have lost the innocence of my youth

I have lost the hope for a better future

I have lost the trust on kindness in this world

I have lost the passion to do things that I love

I do not think I ever have the love kinda feeling

And I have certainly have lost my faith

People said I gave up too easily

Maybe I am

But how can other people know the struggle inside me?

The questioning in my mind whether I am going to make it or not

The pondering in my mind whether I have taken the right decision or otherwise

The wondering in my mind whether I could still stand still after all those failures of mine

Every doors seems have been closed

Every lights have been turned off

I feel suffocated and helpless

I see not even a glimpse of hopes to guide me through this frightening journey

All I see is emptiness

All I have is emptiness

Everything around me is empty and I have no idea how to be filled again…

To live

To be alive

And not to be surrounded by emptiness no more…