“Are you OK?”
Seorang penonton bertanya kepada seorang pengamen yang bermain gitar di stasiun kereta. Penonton yang lain menikmati lagunya, bertepuk tangan, dan memasukkan uang ke dalam kotak uang pengamen itu. Mereka begitu terhibur, begitu gembira.
Penonton yang bertanya itu bertelinga sangat peka ku kira. Dia bisa mendengarkan nada-nada minor dari gitar pengamen itu. Pengamen itu hanya tertawa. Mungkin dia mencoba menutupi keresahannya.
“I’m OK. Aku masih bisa mentertawakan diri sendiri. Jadi, aku kira aku masih ok-ok saja.” Jawabnya sambil kembali tergelak.
Kalau punya teman yang bertelinga peka seperti itu, hidup jadi lebih ringan. Tak perlu dikatakan tapi dia sudah mendengar.
Aku jadi teringat Rob Thomas dalam lagu Unwell-nya: “I’m not crazy but I’m just a little unwell.” Mungkin begitu perasaan pengamen itu, belum sepenuhnya gila tapi agak kurang waras.
Unwell
Songwriters: Thomas, Rob
© EMI BLACKWOOD MUSIC INC.
All day starin' at the ceilin' makin' friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices tellin' me that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for somethin'
Hold on, feelin' like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me
I'm talkin' to myself in public, dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talkin' about me
I can hear them whisper, and it makes me think
There must be somethin' wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinkin', somehow I've lost my mind
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I've been talkin' in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're takin' me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be yeah, how I used to be