Crushed

Kareen saw the meeting as the perfect opportunity to realize her imaginary feeling of her virtual courthsip, which had spanned for three months. The surge of excitement occupied her mind, when Johan told her that he would visit her in two weeks.

Finally,the day that she was waiting for had arrived. It took Johan two hours flight to come to the city where Kareen lived. She went to his hotel and all the way there, her heartbeat was pounding faster than ever. However, her anxiety was washed away once she saw a jovial man greeted her with amicable embraced. He was the real Johan, someone who she used to see only on pictures and now came alive.

Before Kareen took him for sight-seeing, they talked everything about nothing like long lost friends who jus had reunited. The deal was sealed. There would be no sexual intimacy on their first date and until that moment,Johan had shown her something to proven that her feeling was right. There was a reason she fell in love at the first place and his attitude had made her loved him even more.

Over and over Johan was saying that Kareen was the girl that he been looking for. His wife to be, someone who would harbour his beautiful children. For Kareen, it was like the power of ‘Eijafjallajokul’. The spirit of love and belonging had erupted from her cold heart, such a very strong feeling which never existed before. She always knew there would be someone for her future and she was in the verge of it.

A day had gone by in a blink of eyes. Kareen and Johan were exhausted from their excursion to Siloso Beach. After they were back to the hotel and took some rest, Kareen excused herself to leave as she was scheculed to meet some clients down town. Johan sent her to the hotel’s lobby and bid her with a kiss on her forehead. It was FANTASTIC, she thought.

Thirty minutes later, Kareen found herself in front of the office where the meeting would take a place. She was panicked when she noticed that she left her thumb drive in Johan’s notebook. It was presentation’s material in it, which she couldn’t go to the meeting without it. She quickly called her client to inform him that she would be back in twenty minutes. Then, she raced against time back to the hotel.

For few moments she dumbfounded and her brain was frozen, for there was an unbelievable’s scene before her eyes. Johan’s half naked body behind the door while on his bed there was a woman sexier than she, wearing skimpy dress, leather booth and dark eyes liner. Kareen tried hard to gather her thought and told herself that there was nothing to be angry about, as she saw Johan’s remorseful face. After all she did not need to ask him why could he did that to her, as she already knew all the answers. Creating a verbal showdown would only show her desperation.

If she would take the lesson from it, “It was a blessing in disguised”. The truth came to her path without to look for it but deep down in her heart she didn’t not need any lesson, did she? Her Johan, the one who once promised her a paradise in the end left her in disillusionment. He was no longer a perfect catch who once appeared to be. After she collected her thumb drive, she dashed out and went back to the meeting but she never made it there.

By Hayati Samsudin