This time is the lowest point of my life. A couple of days I just lost my second child. He passed away early. You can imagine how I feel. I am feeling blue. It can't be expressed in words.
I always remember him all the time.
My situation right now is like looking for needle in a haystack. So hard to find the best solution.
I lost my spirit to struggle. I supposed I don't have desire anymore. I need a guidence for the rest of my life.
However, Life must go on. I live my life. Willy nilly I have to accept what happen in my life. If it's meant to be, It will be. It is what it is.
Everything has soul will be die. It's just a matter of time. Sooner or later.
I believe after dificulty comes ease. Every cloud has a silver lining. Acorrding to one verse of Qur'an: Inna Ma'al 'Usri Yusra.
Perhaps It is sign for me to live better than before.
Hopefully, I have strengthen to face all of this and my sorrow can be disappear as time goes by.
When it comes to death, We don't wanna happen to people who We love very much. God forbid. Who knows? It turns out It happens to me.
Finally, I hope everything in my life is getting better and better.